Free falling through fear

Fear of the unknown is something a lot of people have in common. When we are not certain of what the future holds in store for us, we worry that it could be bad instead of hoping for the best. This worry doesn’t help in any way, in fact, it hinders our attitude and squashes hope. If you think about it. How and what we think can affect the direction of our unknown path because our choices may be conservative instead of anticipative.

My life path has been altered recently and I feel am at a point where I need to choose what direction I am going to take. I believe that once I chose the path, I will focus all my time and energy there. I will not waste energy thinking about what could have happened had I chosen differently. Tormenting myself with unproven thinking or that I might have made the ‘wrong’ decision, would be the worst thing I could do to myself.

I believe in trusting my intuition, listening to my inner knowing and the feelings that guide my heart. When both paths call to me for different reasons, I recognize that one of them feels better than the other. Yet both pull me for very different reasons. I have been working on visualizing what I want my future to look like, as an experiment, to pull more information out of my subconscious mind. The inner me knows which path would be the best one to follow!

Quieting the worry in my mind is proving difficult and hindering me from hearing the guidance I so desperately seek. I think it is because of my fear of the unknown, that I am standing directly in my own way of the information and guidance I look for. I have been making lists of pros and cons. I have worried about every little thing that I could possibly think of and then again, maybe that’s just because that’s how I am.

All this, much ado about nothing, has led me to feel like giving up. I just do not know which path to take! So here I stand. One foot on each, but not going anywhere. Do you know what is the most uncomfortable feeling to me? Stagnation! Not making progress and stuck in limbo spinning my wheels but going anywhere. This feeling is much like slow and persistent torment for this girl.

But you know what? I believe that was exactly the purpose of this divinely guided exercise. I have finally gotten to the point where I am willing to surrender to my Creator. I am ready to relinquish the control, that I don’t have anyway, and free fall into the trust of the Higher Power.

Of course, I have free will and I am not planning on quitting my job or responsibilities. However, when it comes to my dreams and goals, I surrender these different paths to the heavens and trust that I will know what I need to make the best decision when the time is right. Maybe I am just feeling stuck because it is just not time yet. Maybe this is a period of reflection, rest and recuperation that is for my greatest good?

Instead of wasting time and energy on what I do not know, I am choosing to focus on what I do and let the Universe take care of the rest. Trusting the unknown and letting go of fear, is not easy for me, but it is what I must do for my own good. Living in fear, worrying about what is not even here yet, is damaging to my spirit and my approach to life. Which is just not me! Normally, I am full of hutzpah!

I am brave and a bold dreamer who does not take no for an answer. This bravery does not mean I am not scared, it means I do it anyway. So why is it that this phase in my life is any different? It is not. It means that I must trust life to get me where I am supposed to go because that is what has always happened. Most of my fears in the past have been unfounded and only served to inhibit me from expressing my true self. Not cool man.

After this self-realization has hit me, I am determined to let go of my fear of anything at all. I am going to wake up every morning knowing that I am a divine expression of spirit and that my actions are always guided for my highest and greatest good. If by chance I fall on my face… so what?! It wouldn’t be the first time and was probably for my greatest good as well. I will get up, rub some dirt in it and try again in a different way.

I am choosing to trust myself and my inner guidance while allowing a free fall into the arms of my wonderful unknown future. The only way to do so is to let go of my fears and allow the guidance I seek to seep in. Fear urges us to put up a wall and resist change but Trust opens doors and facilitates growth. I don’t need Spirit to tell me that! I just need to allow myself to trust fall into the future and know that it will be even more magical than I could ever imagine. And so, it is.

Does this ring true to you? I’d love to hear how you defeat your fears!

Wishing you love and blessings,

Emy Minzel ~ Adventure Sister

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Signs, signs…

I had a dream that I was trapped in a very large but comfortable bedroom. Every time that I tried to leave this bedroom I was chased and haunted by a ghost that seemed to represent me as well. I would try repeatedly to leave this room first through the door then the window. I would even take my dog with me in the dream, we ran out into the cold looking for an escape and tried to hide from this ghost that was me. I was running away from myself.

When I woke up I thought “what a weird dream… I wonder what it means?” after contemplating the symbolism of the me ghost chasing me, I concluded that it was my subconscious letting me know that I am scared to go beyond my comfort zone(bedroom). This rings lots of bells in my head because life has been dangling a big opportunity in my face. Seemingly asking me “Do you want it or not?!”

When I write I sit at the kitchen table and watch the birds eat peanuts and sunflowers that I put out for them. I find it relaxing and kind to help critters who struggle to find food in the winter. It had just snowed last night so I had to replace the seeds this morning. Cardinals, Blue Jays, chickadees, and many other birds did not hesitate to swoop down to enjoy the feast I provided for them.

However, there were two crows that sat far up in the trees hollering to each other in excitement about what they found. One of these large crows swooped down and sat on a tree branch just a few feet from the ground eyeing up the bounty that laid just a few feet from it. Yet the crow did not trust it, for several minutes they hollered and talked about the food on the ground just waiting for them to fill their bellies, but they did not take the opportunity. They got very close then decided it just wasn’t meant for them and flew away in the opposite direction without even a bite.

Crows are notoriously resourceful I know that they will survive just fine without the bird food I put out for them. What I can’t get out of my mind is just maybe these crows were sent by God/Universe for me to see that my fear could possibly be keeping me from the success or bounty that lay just at my feet. I am having a hard time trusting that maybe this new path before me is really for the best because it scares me.

Even though I am an Adventure Sister I still get scared about things that will shake up my world. It’s not like when we go on vacation and I get to come back home to my normal life. This is a unique adventure, this opportunity I am wary of would shake up my daily life making it very different.  Clearly, I am concerned I won’t like this new path full of excitement and unknown choices. After all I have worked purposely and diligently at making my life calm and peaceful on purpose!

What if the message from the Crow and my dream were sent by God/Universe for me to see that I should not be scared? As I sat at the kitchen table I tried to will the crow to the food I provided out of love. I even said out loud “Don’t be scared pretty bird, it is safe for you!” Insert face palm here…. Instantly I knew that was the whole point of what The Universe/God had been trying to tell me about this dream and through my experience with the crows.

I had been thinking about the dream and what I was so scared of all morning. I couldn’t put it together why I was chasing myself as a ghost in my dream. The ghost was just my subconscious telling me I am keeping myself small and scared to be safe and comfortable. The crow seemed to tell me that even though I clearly see this opportunity of abundance I am feeling too scared to take advantage of it.

I see now, that my fear is standing squarely in front of the path to what it is I say I want and need. I love it when I pay attention to the signs and symbolism that life or God sends us every day! These two ‘signs’ were so poignant and right on that I cannot deny what they mean. I believe that the Universe sends us signs and signals in so many ways and all we must do is pay attention and listen. After all, God/Higher Power does not usually have actual words to communicate so we must discern what the happenings in our daily life truly mean.

We were given free will and free choice to choose how we want our lives to look for many reasons. We also have experiences in life that affect our reasoning behind why we choose what we choose or do what we do. Why am I feeling too fearful to take this adventurous leap? This is the next step to discernment and personal growth. Now that I know the problem the next step is to figure out why this is a problem. What can I do to fix it or feel better about it? Are my fears valid or are they there just to finally be acknowledged? More discernment is needed, but I will keep you filled in on my progress.

What do you do when you are scared? What signs does the Universe/God send you that are unmistakable? I would love to hear your stories of divinely guided synchronicities I believe are everywhere.

Wishing you an abundance of joyful blessings,

Emy Minzel ~ Adventure Sister

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