I had a dream that I was trapped in a very large but comfortable bedroom. Every time that I tried to leave this bedroom I was chased and haunted by a ghost that seemed to represent me as well. I would try repeatedly to leave this room first through the door then the window. I would even take my dog with me in the dream, we ran out into the cold looking for an escape and tried to hide from this ghost that was me. I was running away from myself.
When I woke up I thought “what a weird dream… I wonder what it means?” after contemplating the symbolism of the me ghost chasing me, I concluded that it was my subconscious letting me know that I am scared to go beyond my comfort zone(bedroom). This rings lots of bells in my head because life has been dangling a big opportunity in my face. Seemingly asking me “Do you want it or not?!”
When I write I sit at the kitchen table and watch the birds eat peanuts and sunflowers that I put out for them. I find it relaxing and kind to help critters who struggle to find food in the winter. It had just snowed last night so I had to replace the seeds this morning. Cardinals, Blue Jays, chickadees, and many other birds did not hesitate to swoop down to enjoy the feast I provided for them.
However, there were two crows that sat far up in the trees hollering to each other in excitement about what they found. One of these large crows swooped down and sat on a tree branch just a few feet from the ground eyeing up the bounty that laid just a few feet from it. Yet the crow did not trust it, for several minutes they hollered and talked about the food on the ground just waiting for them to fill their bellies, but they did not take the opportunity. They got very close then decided it just wasn’t meant for them and flew away in the opposite direction without even a bite.
Crows are notoriously resourceful I know that they will survive just fine without the bird food I put out for them. What I can’t get out of my mind is just maybe these crows were sent by God/Universe for me to see that my fear could possibly be keeping me from the success or bounty that lay just at my feet. I am having a hard time trusting that maybe this new path before me is really for the best because it scares me.
Even though I am an Adventure Sister I still get scared about things that will shake up my world. It’s not like when we go on vacation and I get to come back home to my normal life. This is a unique adventure, this opportunity I am wary of would shake up my daily life making it very different. Clearly, I am concerned I won’t like this new path full of excitement and unknown choices. After all I have worked purposely and diligently at making my life calm and peaceful on purpose!
What if the message from the Crow and my dream were sent by God/Universe for me to see that I should not be scared? As I sat at the kitchen table I tried to will the crow to the food I provided out of love. I even said out loud “Don’t be scared pretty bird, it is safe for you!” Insert face palm here…. Instantly I knew that was the whole point of what The Universe/God had been trying to tell me about this dream and through my experience with the crows.
I had been thinking about the dream and what I was so scared of all morning. I couldn’t put it together why I was chasing myself as a ghost in my dream. The ghost was just my subconscious telling me I am keeping myself small and scared to be safe and comfortable. The crow seemed to tell me that even though I clearly see this opportunity of abundance I am feeling too scared to take advantage of it.
I see now, that my fear is standing squarely in front of the path to what it is I say I want and need. I love it when I pay attention to the signs and symbolism that life or God sends us every day! These two ‘signs’ were so poignant and right on that I cannot deny what they mean. I believe that the Universe sends us signs and signals in so many ways and all we must do is pay attention and listen. After all, God/Higher Power does not usually have actual words to communicate so we must discern what the happenings in our daily life truly mean.
We were given free will and free choice to choose how we want our lives to look for many reasons. We also have experiences in life that affect our reasoning behind why we choose what we choose or do what we do. Why am I feeling too fearful to take this adventurous leap? This is the next step to discernment and personal growth. Now that I know the problem the next step is to figure out why this is a problem. What can I do to fix it or feel better about it? Are my fears valid or are they there just to finally be acknowledged? More discernment is needed, but I will keep you filled in on my progress.
What do you do when you are scared? What signs does the Universe/God send you that are unmistakable? I would love to hear your stories of divinely guided synchronicities I believe are everywhere.
Wishing you an abundance of joyful blessings,
Emy Minzel ~ Adventure Sister
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