Before my life was in full swing with working, writing, campaigning and fitting in family time. I had a couple years when I was able to spend ample amounts of time by myself. I enjoy my alone time and my own company. As an only child, I know how to keep myself entertained and occupied.
During these stretches of solitude. I would ponder deep thoughts about my life, what am I doing with it? Where am I going in the future?
Honestly, I didn’t know for sure. I had plans to live more sustainably, so I worked outside in my garden a great deal, I spent time with my dogs and got lots of exercise. All these activities gave me ample time to contemplate life. I was content in my relationships, I have a wonderful life, I was writing books with my best friend, yet I felt deep in my soul I still had much more to do. But what?
I would pray to whomever was listening to me, my grandma up in heaven, my guides and angels that look over me, and of course the Higher Power above. I had one consistent prayer that I would ask for and that was “please just let me be a light in this world.”
I didn’t have any thoughts or ideas how that would look, so I just went about life, doing my best to be kind. To help others when I could and tried my best to be a good steward of the earth. After all if God created this beautiful planet, I want to treat the earth as the gift is. With respect.
Adventures into the forest of the Boundary Waters Canoe Area in northern Minnesota. Guided me to inner work on the goals I wanted to accomplish for the coming year. My friend and I would make lists, then have a fire ceremony where we would burn the list to send them up to the heavens in the smoke to be answered.
Over the years we’ve held many fire ceremonies over the years. I’ve found it is an effective way to communicate with energies beyond what we see with our eyes. I believe there are angels/spirits watching over us, somedays shaking their heads in disbelief, I am sure.
Some of the ideas I tried to manifest weren’t for me, or maybe not just at the time I asked for them. Yet a great deal of what I had asked for did start coming true for. Psst… Manifesting tip #1, if you want it, you must make steps toward it. Hardly ever does it just come in the mail delivered to your front door or get set on your lap.
Also once you burn it, trust it’s on the way and detach from it as if it’s not your problem to deal with because the heavens up above have it handled. You must not be stubborn or too specific about exact details. For it may not come in the way you think it will. Like Mike Dooley says, “You can’t micromanage the Universe.”
This prayer of “please just let me be the light,” I never told anyone. It was only between me and the Higher Power.
Fast forward to today after several years of this constant prayer/mantra and I was sitting in the car with my Campaign Manager just a week or so after being endorsed by the DFL. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the giant undertaking of a campaign neither of us had planned on participating so acutely in.
We were running around chasing our tails trying to gather what we needed to craft a plan of action, while feeling like we had no energy left to keep moving forward.
I looked at her and I say, “I don’t know if I want to do this anymore.”
She sat there for a few seconds and said to me. “You can’t quit. Please don’t quit. You are the light! We all need you.”
I could not believe she said those words to me. It was like God had put those specific words into her mouth, she knew exactly what to say so that I knew; I needed to persevere.
I could not help myself and I started to cry, I cry a lot. I feel deeply. Yet for some reason I knew in my soul that she was a messenger of the heavens above. Sending encouragement and answering my prayer with the confirmation I truly needed.
That was the day, I knew in my heart. I must not give up. I must continue so that I facilitate the change I wish to see in the world. It was not easy for me to leave my comfortable life I had been blessed with. I was not used to the demands of my time and energy; I was my own boss for a reason. The change of pace from a work at home business owner, writer, wife, and mother to campaigning for the State House of Representatives was a drastic shake up of my days and how they used to look.
I am choosing to keep moving forward because I believe it is the answer to my prayer; just let me be the light. I am choosing to shine the light in my community, doing what I can because I can. Because I have been asked to do so. Right here at home, in the beautiful place I live.
I love Minnesota. I love our Minnesota way of life. I believe I live in one of the most beautiful places in the United States and I wish to keep it that way.
I will shine my light as the beacon to the way of progress in the direction that is sustainable and healthy for all. I hope I get to be one of the lucky ones that gets to lead the way to a brighter future.
My vision is to be the proverbial brave hermit coming out of profound solitude and contemplation to shine my inner knowing like a light.
Wishing you an abundance of joyful blessings,
Emy Minzel ~ I am love.
Picture courtesy of Pat Theilen
Emy Minzel 